Happy New Year Another year, another year older and a time for reflection. This year has flown by hasn't it? I have done so much this year and it has been a bit of a whirlwind. I love my life but have idle hours when I wonder if it is real or sustainable even, and when it will change, should it change?

I have a lot of questions in my head. I mean how long will I be in Chicago? In the summer I turned down a work opportunity to move to another city in America. I was pleased with my decision but it got me thinking, it got my company thinking and I wonder if I will be here in 12 months time.

Work though is something I am very proud off, I have made quite an impression in the four years I have been here. Do I sit on that or do I seek further challenges?

I continue to spend money on getting my home just as I want it. I love my loft and I love city living but oh for a garden and more space.

My relationship is wonderful and something at one point in my life I'd thought I'd made decisions that meant I would never be so lucky. The key now is for me not to take that for granted. I can be self-absorbed and indolent in these situations.

And never a day goes by when I don't feel guilt. My son is 4,000 miles away, he is beautiful and entertaining. I am here, how long can that go on or is it all we both know? I miss my parents and my brother too and those damned Addicks.

See, a lot of questions. Some won't ever be answered, some will need to be. 2008, is it really 8 years since the turn of the century? Wow, how my life is different now.

Life is to be loved though and every last ounce has to be squeezed out of it. That is my philosphy. You only get one shot.

Have a great New Year, don't ask too many questions and always have something to look forward to. Especially big thanks for taking time in your busy life's to read What was the score, and to spur me to write more and also to others who spend time putting their thoughts down for me to do likewise.

All the very best for 2008, Chicago Addick  ¶ 19:34