Richard Murray Spare a thought for this man tonight. We are all hurting, but this man will be hurting more. He and his colleagues and advisors were only going to let what they considered to be the right people into our club, and they have been kicked in the balls.

At the Bloggers meeting in the summer Richard Murray said that he is "only a custodian" of our great club. Well without him, we could argue that we wouldn't have a club. Certainly he should be proud that due to his prudence and leadership the club even appealed to one of the richest men in the world. But they have gone now, off to the sunset leaving us all alone to dwell on what might have been.

I felt sick this morning. Not as sick as I did when I was handed a piece of paper with directions to Selhurst Park on it in 1985 or a year or so before then, when my brother and I used to have conversations about what we would do on a Saturday if we had no one to support. Of course this morning was a collective kick in the balls for all of us and the time requires a deep breath and some leadership.

But I have taken great heart during the course of today from reading the forums and blogs of people that care about our little club as much as Richard Murray does. Blimey worse things happen at sea, and our club has endured many a worse day than this. It is why we love them, it's that siege mentality.

I'm off for a pop now with 'Lookout' from Charlton Life, we probably need one to be honest and I'll toast Richard Murray because he deserves it and I hope he goes to bed tonight still a proud man. I know I'm proud to be a Charlton Athletic fan.  ¶ 17:52